In June 2011, I was
looking for something to motivate me with the femdom lifestyle. I was active in
the lifestyle from 1998 to 2008 but had taken a hiatus from the lifestyle for a
few years. When I decided to give it another go, I needed something to make it
fresh and exciting again. That’s when I decided to write this blog. My purpose
was two-fold.
One, I wanted to share
some of the experiences I had with femdom between 1998 and 2008. It was a wild
ride where I went from nervous beginner to the Head Mistress of a femdom group.
Along the way I was a phone Mistress, a pro Domme, and a movie reviewer for a popular
femdom e-zine. I met some fascinating people on this journey and had some interesting
experiences. I figured people would enjoy reading about them.
The second purpose of
this blog was to challenge me. I figured if I wrote about my femdom marriage,
having a blog would push me to make certain I had something to write about. And
it did. This blog was exactly what I needed to expand my horizons and try new
things. It was also wonderful to be able to share my thoughts, struggles and
challenges with others.
But now I feel I need a
break, not from the lifestyle, but from blogging about the lifestyle. Right now
it is just hubby and I, no groups, no other people, just him and I practicing
our lifestyle within our marriage. And that’s how I want it for now. No
pressure to write about what we do or don’t do. I just want to reset things
with him and, like I said in my previous post, focus on the fundamentals.
In my opinion, where I
see our focus over the next months would not make for a great blog and I’m afraid
most of the entries would be redundant. How many times can I write about
spanking hubby with my hairbrush? Or hubby giving me a massage? Or hubby doing
his chores while wearing my panties? It’s fun for us but pretty tame. The thing
is: I am ready for tame in my life. I want to work on my relationship with James
without “would this make for a good blog entry” hanging over my head. I no
longer want to be challenged or motivated. I want to just be, in a relaxed way,
for now.
Thanks again for all the
great comments and feedback I’ve received over these past three years. And it
was great to touch base with some old friends who found me through this blog, especially
the people from my ClubFEM days. God Bless you all!
